VULNERABILITY IN ART
My Apollo project was first inspired by the simple question, “ How can I make my art and music more authentic?” And life in general as well. Authenticity can be described as what is genuine and I felt as if that was exactly what I was lacking in both my art and my relationships with friends and family. This question inevitably led me to the idea of being vulnerable with all you do. Some see vulnerability as exposure, something negative, something uncomfortable that we guard ourselves from whenever we can. On the contrary, many see it as a key component to a healthy relationship. The first ‘I love you’ for example, may be something scary or a bit uncomfortable for most, but this is the way we get things to blossom. Sometimes vulnerability is beautiful. Taking that risk and being seen as you are is not something that comes naturally to many of us. I mean, look at social media and technology in general. Hiding behind a screen may make things easier but is it helping us in the long run? This is what I explored within my project. I researched how vulnerability can help one’s relationships and mental health. I also conducted two interviews with two different sources who gave me more information and some insight on their perspectives. Below are my messy notes!
PAINTING OF ANONYMOUS STORIES
"ONE SIDED LOVE SONG" LYRICS
They’re all sitting, waiting
So obsessed on chasing
Something I have never felt
But maybe I don’t wanna feel
Feel what they have set aside
For me since the age of five
Tell me is it such a crime
To live and to be real enough for me
Are you listening or getting ready to talk?
You tell me that you get me but then you say that I’m at fault
Like my love’s not enough for you but you see me give my all
I know you don’t understand and, that’s the hardest part
It’s all the hardest part
I’m feeling so alone
But I’m speaking from my heart
There were times I wasn’t sure
Feeling I’d been here before
Have you ever felt at war
With all your wants and needs
Everything is looking grey
Fog for miles, it won’t fade
I won’t go the other way
Cause I’m not here to please
You
Are you listening or getting ready to talk?
You tell me that you get me but then you say that I’m at fault
Like my love’s not enough for you but you see me give my all
I know you don’t understand and, that’s the hardest part
It’s all the hardest part
I’m feeling so alone
But I’m speaking from my heart
They’re all sitting, waiting
So obsessed on chasing
Something I have never felt
But maybe I don’t wanna feel
Feel what they have set aside
For me since the age of five
Tell me is it such a crime
To live and to be real enough for me
So obsessed on chasing
Something I have never felt
But maybe I don’t wanna feel
Feel what they have set aside
For me since the age of five
Tell me is it such a crime
To live and to be real enough for me
Are you listening or getting ready to talk?
You tell me that you get me but then you say that I’m at fault
Like my love’s not enough for you but you see me give my all
I know you don’t understand and, that’s the hardest part
It’s all the hardest part
I’m feeling so alone
But I’m speaking from my heart
There were times I wasn’t sure
Feeling I’d been here before
Have you ever felt at war
With all your wants and needs
Everything is looking grey
Fog for miles, it won’t fade
I won’t go the other way
Cause I’m not here to please
You
Are you listening or getting ready to talk?
You tell me that you get me but then you say that I’m at fault
Like my love’s not enough for you but you see me give my all
I know you don’t understand and, that’s the hardest part
It’s all the hardest part
I’m feeling so alone
But I’m speaking from my heart
They’re all sitting, waiting
So obsessed on chasing
Something I have never felt
But maybe I don’t wanna feel
Feel what they have set aside
For me since the age of five
Tell me is it such a crime
To live and to be real enough for me
LULLABY LYRICS
I’m tryna see if you can focus on me for a minute
when it comes to you, well, I’ve been thinking for a million
what do you see when you
pause in time to gaze at stars
what do you feel when you
contemplate just who you are
these thoughts are scattered
as the freckles all up on your face
your voice, it quivers
as you tell me of a better place
a place where no more nights
are sacrificed for all you hear
a place to stop the motion
that you’re put in by your fear
where do you go when no one gets where you are coming from
who have you told about your dreams you had when you were young
I know we are
different breeds, drastically
but hold your heart close, baby just lay down with me
close your eyes // I can stay for a while
time will heal // it is all in place for you // I am here
when I was little I would sit and watch in contemplation
as people prayed in church to get rid of the complications
sit at the altar as your faith engulfs the candle flame
for if you get your answers it will take away your pain
cause when it comes to what we see it’s never set in stone
and if you don’t agree then build your wall and be alone
but I see you I know deep down you feel it too
there’s nowhere I would rather be, than right here next to you
close your eyes // I can stay for a while // no goodbyes
time will heal // it is all in place for you // I am here
take your mind off it all // well sleep away the day // just call it off
when it comes to you, well, I’ve been thinking for a million
what do you see when you
pause in time to gaze at stars
what do you feel when you
contemplate just who you are
these thoughts are scattered
as the freckles all up on your face
your voice, it quivers
as you tell me of a better place
a place where no more nights
are sacrificed for all you hear
a place to stop the motion
that you’re put in by your fear
where do you go when no one gets where you are coming from
who have you told about your dreams you had when you were young
I know we are
different breeds, drastically
but hold your heart close, baby just lay down with me
close your eyes // I can stay for a while
time will heal // it is all in place for you // I am here
when I was little I would sit and watch in contemplation
as people prayed in church to get rid of the complications
sit at the altar as your faith engulfs the candle flame
for if you get your answers it will take away your pain
cause when it comes to what we see it’s never set in stone
and if you don’t agree then build your wall and be alone
but I see you I know deep down you feel it too
there’s nowhere I would rather be, than right here next to you
close your eyes // I can stay for a while // no goodbyes
time will heal // it is all in place for you // I am here
take your mind off it all // well sleep away the day // just call it off